demonology and heartache

drive me away

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 20:16:42 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Brian mother fucking Barrett
Birthday:	08-29-1985
Birthplace:	Btown
Current Location:	Ltown
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	black, blonde, bleach, brown lol
Height:	5'11
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	n/a
The Shoes You Wore Today:	vans slip ons with gold trim =)
Your Weakness:	i aint got one niggie
Your Fears:	of heights
Your Perfect Pizza:	black olives, bell peper
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	have fun =)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"lol" or "haha"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"fuk i got work today =\"
Your Best Physical Feature:	everything
Your Bedtime:	whenever the FUCK i want
Your Most Missed Memory:	love
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi fo sho
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mac? isnt it McDonalds?
Single or Group Dates:	both niggie
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	fuk them
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	no
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	kinda
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	yes
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	dad = yes ...mom = fuck her shes a fag har har
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yup, lost 30 pounds and almost died lol
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	i dont get dumped
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	stupid ass mexicans
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	computer tech & lover =)
What country would you most like to Visit:	germany
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	hazil or blue
Favourite Hair Color:	iuno
Short or Long Hair:	both
Height:	5'8
Weight:	fuk if i know but not fat
Best Clothing Style:	iuno
Number of Drugs I have taken:	2
Number of CDs I own:	dont wanna count
Number of Piercings:	4
Number of Tattoos:	3
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	1
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

this is a spider web & im caught in the middle.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 10:55:05 GMT

friends, i want to be with them more,
i love them to death.

family, i can hate yet still love.

life, doesnt feel like one, i need motivation,
i need shit to start going right ...soon.

job, i dont wanna work so much, it pays
alot but i have no social life.

music, makes me start thinking, it can
keep me going, or it can slow me down.

at these random ungodly times, i start to
think about me, about my life, about my future,
its 2:39 in the am, and i wonder how i keep it
going ...seriously, someone and or something
always keeps me motivated, and right now,
nothing/no one is there to do so, im losing it,
i n e e d some m o t i v a t i o n

west hollywood memorial

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 08:17:38 GMT

so i have no time on my hands besides during the day like 11am-2pm ...all i do is work and go to school basically, i try to chill with my friends/hoes everytime i get, but its just not enough, i dont have anytime on my hands until i start working a different shift, and i work crazy over time, i wanna drop my classes but i dont, iuno ...i guess i just wanna make something of myself, i start work at 3pm ...and i get off at 11pm ...but most of the time i stay till 3am, which is 12 hours, then i go home take a shower & fall asleep, wake up to go to school cause i have to be there at 11am ....it ends at 1pm ...i go home get ready for work and eat, then im off to work, and it just repeats, and ive worked EVERY saturday since i got hired there, its really hectic right now, only day i get off is sunday, and usually i try and go out, but im just to damn tired, im sorry to all my friends for not chilling with them as much as id want to, heck ...i havent seen my best friends in over a week, it just sucks really, i dont have time to do shit right now, hopefully in about 2 weeks everything will be back to normal, and just working the 8 hours im soposed to, well ....just wanted to update you, it might seem like im ignoring you kids, but seriously ...im not, im just really busy right now =\

ps. long beach city > cerritos

living the life ive always wanted

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 02:27:56 GMT

so heres an update!
i got a new job, i play with paper all day, its fun, and i make a shit load of money doing it, i like it, so my first check is this friday, feb 4th, everyone knows that date now, lol im so excited its gunna be my biggest check ive ever gotten from a job, and there will be much more to come, ive been chilling with my homeboy eric and the cuzin christian a lot lately, together ...we came, we saw, & we conquered, haha, fuck yes we are awesome and your jealous, for the past couple months ...my life has been going so great, i got the new job, no more faggot ass bike shop, and i actually have money to spend and shit, my friends are awesome, they can do weird shit sometimes, but no ones perfect ya know? ...ive really grown in so many ways this past year, i got a real job, ive met some really down to earth guys & girls and i fucking love them, i can actually say, i AM addicted to starbucks & jamba juice, i go there like everyday, ive been working out ALMOST on a daily basis at the gym haha, i dont fuck around with commitment with girls cause i just dont want to right now ...right now i just wanna have fun, and i dont need the drama, so if your one of "them" ...dont even think about it, i dont want a gf right now ....eric finnaly started driving and got his truck and shit, im stoked for him (he still owns my dick) ....HAHA LOL ...my friends ARE my family they mean the world to me, i love you! ...this entry goes out to all the people that have made the past 4 or 5 months worth living! heres some names ....eric, christian, ian, brandon, my dad, my uncle sam, aunt gabby, my 2 steping 9 year old cuzin HAHA, sammy, nicole, britney, jessica, christina, ryan, crazy ass jenna, matt, mitch, all the caspian foo's, kim, maddi, carla, & steph ....i know i missed some names, but please forgive me haha!

i dont feel like crying

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 07:53:32 GMT

NO I DO NOT WANT A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP OF ANY TYPE SO SHUT THE FUCK UP
kthx
you
fukin
piece
of
shit
slut

it makes no difference, were still alone

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 02:27:20 GMT

now that ...is a true pimp
like me and eric<3

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:15:59 GMT

k ...if you know me, i drive a jetta, and i ALWAYS have my car smelling like oranges cause of my air freshener shit, and NO ONE likes it, so when someone (like christian) farts in my car ...i attack them with it, and tonight me, kim, and my cuzin nicole went to starbucks ...and kim threw it out the window, i am now very sad, kim ...your going down motha fucka!!!!!!!! just watch!!! ...now i am in need of a new air freshener =(

the things you said, im reahearsing them

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 06:44:59 GMT

lifes good, it has been for awhile
my friends are great, i have fun everyday
i want a new car again =)