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[17 Feb 2005|02:55am] |
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friends, i want to be with them more,
i love them to death.
family, i can hate yet still love.
life, doesnt feel like one, i need motivation,
i need shit to start going right ...soon.
job, i dont wanna work so much, it pays
alot but i have no social life.
music, makes me start thinking, it can
keep me going, or it can slow me down.
at these random ungodly times, i start to
think about me, about my life, about my future,
its 2:39 in the am, and i wonder how i keep it
going ...seriously, someone and or something
always keeps me motivated, and right now,
nothing/no one is there to do so, im losing it,
i n e e d some m o t i v a t i o n
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| west hollywood memorial |
[11 Feb 2005|12:07am] |
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the rain =) |
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so i have no time on my hands besides during the day like 11am-2pm ...all i do is work and go to school basically, i try to chill with my friends/hoes everytime i get, but its just not enough, i dont have anytime on my hands until i start working a different shift, and i work crazy over time, i wanna drop my classes but i dont, iuno ...i guess i just wanna make something of myself, i start work at 3pm ...and i get off at 11pm ...but most of the time i stay till 3am, which is 12 hours, then i go home take a shower & fall asleep, wake up to go to school cause i have to be there at 11am ....it ends at 1pm ...i go home get ready for work and eat, then im off to work, and it just repeats, and ive worked EVERY saturday since i got hired there, its really hectic right now, only day i get off is sunday, and usually i try and go out, but im just to damn tired, im sorry to all my friends for not chilling with them as much as id want to, heck ...i havent seen my best friends in over a week, it just sucks really, i dont have time to do shit right now, hopefully in about 2 weeks everything will be back to normal, and just working the 8 hours im soposed to, well ....just wanted to update you, it might seem like im ignoring you kids, but seriously ...im not, im just really busy right now =\
ps. long beach city > cerritos
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| living the life ive always wanted |
[31 Jan 2005|06:03pm] |
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comeback kid - step ahead |
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so heres an update!
i got a new job, i play with paper all day, its fun, and i make a shit load of money doing it, i like it, so my first check is this friday, feb 4th, everyone knows that date now, lol im so excited its gunna be my biggest check ive ever gotten from a job, and there will be much more to come, ive been chilling with my homeboy eric and the cuzin christian a lot lately, together ...we came, we saw, & we conquered, haha, fuck yes we are awesome and your jealous, for the past couple months ...my life has been going so great, i got the new job, no more faggot ass bike shop, and i actually have money to spend and shit, my friends are awesome, they can do weird shit sometimes, but no ones perfect ya know? ...ive really grown in so many ways this past year, i got a real job, ive met some really down to earth guys & girls and i fucking love them, i can actually say, i AM addicted to starbucks & jamba juice, i go there like everyday, ive been working out ALMOST on a daily basis at the gym haha, i dont fuck around with commitment with girls cause i just dont want to right now ...right now i just wanna have fun, and i dont need the drama, so if your one of "them" ...dont even think about it, i dont want a gf right now ....eric finnaly started driving and got his truck and shit, im stoked for him (he still owns my dick) ....HAHA LOL ...my friends ARE my family they mean the world to me, i love you! ...this entry goes out to all the people that have made the past 4 or 5 months worth living! heres some names ....eric, christian, ian, brandon, my dad, my uncle sam, aunt gabby, my 2 steping 9 year old cuzin HAHA, sammy, nicole, britney, jessica, christina, ryan, crazy ass jenna, matt, mitch, all the caspian foo's, kim, maddi, carla, & steph ....i know i missed some names, but please forgive me haha!
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| i dont feel like crying |
[26 Jan 2005|11:52pm] |
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tired gnite fuckers! |
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senses fail - angela baker and my obsession |
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NO I DO NOT WANT A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP OF ANY TYPE SO SHUT THE FUCK UP
kthx
you
fukin
piece
of
shit
slut
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[19 Jan 2005|10:14pm] |
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k ...if you know me, i drive a jetta, and i ALWAYS have my car smelling like oranges cause of my air freshener shit, and NO ONE likes it, so when someone (like christian) farts in my car ...i attack them with it, and tonight me, kim, and my cuzin nicole went to starbucks ...and kim threw it out the window, i am now very sad, kim ...your going down motha fucka!!!!!!!! just watch!!! ...now i am in need of a new air freshener =(
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| the things you said, im reahearsing them |
[17 Jan 2005|10:43pm] |
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saosin - bury your head |
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lifes good, it has been for awhile
my friends are great, i have fun everyday
i want a new car again =)
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